So I am going to be honest. I started a devotional for Lent and I got behind on it. And as I read multiple days to catch up I noticed that while it is not bad, it’s just not my style. Only about 1 out of every 5 days hit a chord that gets me thinking. But that led me to think about my motivation. I’ve read other devotionals that I really liked and was intrinsically motivated to finish. Most of them weren’t 40+ days though. And most were on a subject that I had interest in. I know from my studies that in order to be intrinsically motivated we need to feel autonomous. That it is something we have chosen to do for ourselves. But how can you trust autonomy when we know man’s plans are flawed. God gave us free will and sometimes (most times) we choose wrong. I believe God has a plan for me and a path He wants me to take.
Hmmm? I found myself in a dilemma. But after a while I saw things a little more clearly. I am choosing to pursue this and allowing God to guide me along the way. I chose to start this devotional and even if I don’t see immediate worth in what I am reading I have to believe that there IS a reason. It just might not be readily apparent.
To widen that perspective out a little bit. We may choose something that totally blows up in our face. A decision that just doesn’t work out the way we had it planned. Something where we say to ourselves, “I never should have done that to begin with.” The question we then should be asking ourselves is, “What did I learn from this experience?” I think this is one way God steers us down the right path. We have to fail. The Bible is filled with stories of people who make the wrong choice. The good news is that we are forgiven when we ask for forgiveness.
So I am going to continue to read this particular devotional. I am all caught up and have a week to go. God Bless!